A life without using chemical substances is impossible virtually lets face it (coffee, steroid creams, painkillers etc) -and but a life without using ‘culturally unacceptable‘ drugs is the new fashion that has permeated the globe, reeking of neo conservatism and the judgemental vision of god. For a while at leas
I would really like to be listened to sometime about what I would like to help ME get my shit together. Because it isn’t because of drugs primarily (granted they can make it harder at times) it the curse of fucking life.
Life is a painful slingshot…. sitting there, waiting – it is all yours, in your sack you carry on your back, and you stand looking over the Mediterranean – it is your life, in your slingshot, and there you are, about to propel your dreams over the cliffs into eternity with the power of a gladiator of Greece (the Ancient Greece , you get me?) and love and beautiful things and words, and sharing and and , and….
I know what I want to say. Just because I am a person who doesnt get into the AA/ NA methodologies Im not a person that thinks that mental health problems have no role to play in the lives of people who use drugs. Jeezus Christ it has ripped my eyes out of my head to see mental health problems being exacerbated by illegal drugs – but, just as -if not more importantly and statistically more predominant; the pharmacological contraindications….In other words, one pharmacists given drug interacting BADLY with another pharmaceutical drug.
Went I finally went to America, NYC 3 times just for short work calls sponsored by UNAIDS at the time (Thanks guys x) I was bowled over by the amount of INSURANCE, DRUG COMPANY, CAR COMMERCIALS. I could not believe what i was seeing. It just all rolled up into a ball and i became more scared than Id ever been. What sort of democracy is that? What SHIT is their global satellite companies going to spread to everyone else….What Murdoch bullshit, lies and propaganda next time. Lets just pray they are sweating in their beds and having sleepless nights -and have started taking pills to help them slepp, and then wake up…just a little one you know….
Recovery ain’t what i’m going to be doing, whether I stop using or not!
My life doesnt need your little ‘groups’ that you decide will work coz they have in the past. So has washing under your armpits!
I feel, to get to be useful with the ageing population of heroin and serious -and im gonna say it coz i can – hardcore’ old school older users over 50 odd, that we have in this county. That don’t use all that now of course, some still shock you though and binges are common – just like you were 27 again. But you ain’t. And we are dying from nobody really noticing that we are growing old – and some of, well, are in some serious states. Often alone.
I’m seeing a hell of a lot of medical problems come up that taking WAY too long to treat; - considering they go to see a GP or clinic ever bloody TWO FUCKIN WEEKS to pick up their methadone prescription.
You know what we need? Mum and I talked about this is the car just recently.
We need peer advocates (as they did Melbourne) that could work with a team at hospital ( in particular LIVER or HIV specific units) . This trained peer support located for special appointment days – someone located at a community health centre (or a drug centre I suppose seeing as we are so used to using them for anything and everything these days).
But someone – a trained peer or generally empathetic advocate -to go with you to doctors appointments, ask for information, be a record – advocate.
All these years later and we are still getting our medical issues ignored – yes because we want to ignore them too – but if some medic took a bit of care, took the time to ask questions, look like they cared, talked about your medical issues clearly, well, I guarantee that the person would show interest – and interest to look after their health.
But the fact is – when you have nothing and no one, its too hard to care about yourself. But thats why we need advcates. To go and pick up the person for their appointment, go with them, go into the drs with them, and keeps you from getting fucked over. Which can happen by busy drs who want the research but dont care at all about you.
Anyway, I was reminded by a brilliant Drug User Union that is doing exactly that! In a state in America – Ill find the link. I am sure there is more of you. Such a small thing to do could mean the difference between finishing or maintaining treeatment or not _ Hep C I mean but HIV will have different needs). Ill get the link and be back.
don’t mean to go on…..